Miss Purry Happy

2011-01-06T20:40:00.002+08:00

A brand new year, 2011. Nothing special, nothing new. Just something I don't look forward to. Nowadays I can't be bothered with anything & everything. The only thing that I wanna do is lay down in a pit dark room & listen to some comforting music.

2010-11-15T02:14:00.002+08:00

I don't know what's going on. Like seriously clueless. Is it for real? Or is it just here for temporary & crush me into pieces AGAIN?! Arghhhhhh!

I freaking hate the feeling I'm having now!

Been meeting up for 4 days straight. After our talk/discussion, I hope you really mean what you say. Prove to me that we won't be like in the past.

2010-11-10T01:42:00.002+08:00

It really is a huge shock for me to receive a message from him at FB. Who would expect right?

6 months after the break up, he came looking for me. It's one after another. I'm freaking serious & curious!

I really don't know why, like seriously WHY?! Its like all of the sudden, out of the blue.

I'm so confused! Bingung sih! Is it for real?! I just don't want to get hurt for the second time with the same person again. I don't want to waste my time & end it with a broken heart. I'm not getting any younger anymore. I've had enough of being nice to people & get stepped on the head.

So if we were to get back together again, I hope he mean what he said.

2010-11-07T14:17:00.002+08:00

I wonder, like seriously I wonder why?!

Whatever it is, I can't be bothered anymore. Not hoping for any miracle to happen.

It's annoying coz my left eye twitch non-stop since yesterday. Mum said someone missed me.

Yelah tu makkkk! Sigh.

"Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth & I really don't know what to do coz I'm just a little too not over you..."

2010-10-29T03:16:00.002+08:00

Life is back to normal, the same old boredom days. No point living nearby the beach when there's no one to hangout with. Anyways it's okay, I'm getting used to it! I knew this will happen one day, it's been like this for countless times. Been falling for the wrong person at the wrong time.

Now sorrows aside...

Friday: Hunting for some other ingredients. Haircut.

Saturday: Bake an Oreo Cake. Attend my cousin's wedding ceremony. Night outing.

Sunday: Off to KL in the morning!

Monday: Cooling off to Genting Highlands!

Tuesday: Back to Home sweet home, SG!

Wednesday: Meet up with Long time never meet friends.

Thursday: WORK!

Friday: WORK!

Saturday: WORK!

Sunday: WORK!

That's my schedule for the first week of the holidays.

2010-10-22T23:05:00.005+08:00

Us in the Ferry to Bintan!

The restaurant named Coffee shop.

Me & Diy, for rescue!

Croak frog!

The Garden

The pool with sea view.

Us bored in the hotel.

Nasi Goreng kampong which isn't to my taste.

The menu.

Bintan trip was an okay, short getaway from everything & everyone. Quite fun but not extremely fun cause everything there was freaking expensive, I swear! Not for students or travellers on a budget! But overall, the resort there is clean. People there is friendly. Well some mistook us for Filis which actually pissed me off. Ngakkk suka sih!!!

Being back home really makes me in totally off mood! Sigh.

Well I gonna work my ass off to get the shits right out of my brain,

to let things off my mind.

I really need to getaway from all this.

If it ever came true one fine day,

for sure that'll be the happiest moment in my life!!!

Seriously.

Insya Allah.

Biar berangan, jangan mengharap.

2010-10-14T14:40:00.002+08:00

I hate it! Hate it when someone I care about totally changed! Changed because of some stupid problems! FUCK PROBLEMS!

I stick with you & lepak with you almost everyday, hoping you won't fall into a shit hole but somehow I failed! I'm totally upset! Upset with everything! I failed miserably!

I want to see you be someone successful coz I know what your background is like. Know what? You're the nicest person I've ever met! But why must you changed?! You're not the same person I knew. I cried coz I'm afraid that you'll changed, somehow my fear became true.

I just hope one day you'll realize.

Take care HazHas.

2010-10-12T06:10:00.003+08:00

BBQ was great! Thanks to him for helping me out with marinating the chicken & also grilling it on the day itself. Nice!

2010-09-21T17:17:00.003+08:00

Human nowadays is soooo confusing! WTH! For the second time, a human actually lied to me about their status. Ouh hell! Why can't all of you just be honest with yourselves & the people around you? Is it so difficult? For once, why can't you all think? Use your brain. What if your partner did the same thing to you? Wouldn't you get upset or feel betrayed?

Sigh, get the fuck out of my life! I don't need a liar in my list of friends.

2010-09-17T04:52:00.002+08:00

I had fun yesterday!!! Me, Diy, Ida & Huda went to PS to catch the movie RESIDENT EVIL: AFTERLIFE in 3D!!! Wooooooohoooooooooooooooooo! The movie that I've been waiting for is here & I've watched it! It's quite draggy in the beginning but in the middle part, finally there's alot of action scenes :) It's funny though, we were asked for our IC twice! Once at the ticket counter & then at the entrance. It's like..."Hellooooo, can't you see that we're very 'matured'?", HAHAHA!!!

After the movie, we had our lunch at Pondok Jawa Timur. Then we head off to Changi Airport! :)

Took lots of pics, talked rot & ate alot!!! FUH!! Need to shed off the excess fats! UGHHH!!

Anyway, I'm over it..

Somehow things changed, it wasn't like last time.

2010-09-14T12:12:00.003+08:00

Past few days wasn't as exciting. Just that previous night after work, we went to Sembawang Park.

It was really eerie, me as usual just chilled & walked, pretend that nothing's wrong when I actually did smell something, a very strong sweet flowery perfume smell. Sort of a frangipani? Cempaka flower?

The next day I asked everyone who went there, they said NO! I was like, "WTF?! SERIOUSLY?!" That really freaked me out!!! Luckily that "thing" didn't followed me home or else my mum would have given me a whole day of a nag! HAHAHA!

I can't wait for the next "excursion"!!! :)

2010-09-12T03:39:00.003+08:00

Raya celebration wasn't as happening like the previous years. Maybe because my cousins who is gerek isn't with me or maybe I wasn't enjoying myself coz the rest of the people who I jalan-jalan with wasn't around my age, is married. BORING!

As expected, my aunts & uncles asked me the BONUS question!! ARGHHHHH!! I hate it when they ask, for God's sake! I don't have any boyfriend so don't ask when I'm getting married & stuff. I know la most of my cousins is attached, engaged, married. My time hasn't arrive yet. Sadness. Whatever it is, I'm chilled with this whole thing. Like what I said, I'll just keep all my feelings deep inside my heart & will just take care of that someone, make him happy, cheer him up when he's down, be there for him, support him, anything.

I've been rejecting alot of guys who asked me out, asked for my number. SIGH! WHY?!

Because......if I have feelings for someone, I won't go out or exchange number with other guys but too bad la. I may look/sound stupid but that's me!

2010-09-11T06:05:00.003+08:00

Rani, ouh, Rani..Why must you post that on my wall?

I admit that I still do have feelings for him. So I'll just keep the feelings to myself. *PEACE*

Nevermind, what's done can't be undone. No point dwelling on something that isn't meant to be mine, I'll just accept whatever fate has for me even though sometimes I do try to avoid it.

2010-09-10T13:10:00.002+08:00

I woke up at 12 plus in the afternoon, wanted to follow my family but afraid that I might be late for work so I skipped the visits for today. Tomorrow I'm not working so yeah, excited much! Can munch on the raya goodies!

Gotta go, will update again after work!

2010-09-09T09:06:00.002+08:00

I'm still wide awake!! WTH!!

Nevermind , what matters most is my choc cup cookies is a success!! :)

So whoever wants to order, you may do so..Hehehe!

Well this year I really is weird, went to Geylang countless times! Not to shop for myself but most of the time is to accompany them buy their stuffs..Again I went there with Diy, Alf & my mum..This time it's like we really walked around coz my mum is gettin a table mat, Diy - baju kurung & Alf - kain samping. Me - NOTHING! HAHAHAHA! We had "fun" battling thru the massive crowd! Head home at around 10 plus. Continue baking the raya goodies, Choc Cup Cookies all the way until NOW! I'm still awake.....I really need sleeppppppppppppppp! Have to get ready for work at around 4 plus.

Anyway I wonder la, again!

2010-09-08T15:18:00.003+08:00

OMG! I lost count of how many times I went to Geylang Bazaar!

Had a fun outing to the bazaar yesterday with Diy, Alfie, Hakim & Rani! Ate ayam penyet, it was really really spicy but SEDAP! Took some pics, Hakim bought Baju Kurung while Alfie bought capal. I hope I spelt it correctly. Hehe.

Bumped into Marinah, so long never see her. HAHA!

Then off to S'pore post, sat there for awhile & we went home.

Diy & me head off to East Coast to meet Nasir, we talked rot, secrets, "luahan hati" all came out from our mouth..HAHAHAHA! It was fun though.

Thanks for making my day everyone! :) Appreciated much.

Anyway I'm unsure, wished I could read your mind! But still I have feelings for you. Ouh God, why do you have to make my life miserable? Nevermind, shall just chill...

Im off to Geylang AGAIN!!!! to accompany Diy & my mum.

2010-09-07T14:47:00.004+08:00

The more I think about it, the more confused & crazy I'll be. Can I just stay away? But my heart wants to stay. Damn! Err...I bet you never realized that I still have feelings for you, I still do after what happened.

Sadness. Sometimes I just wonder why do bad human get the good partner? We the good ones always get the bad ones. Sigh! I'm really pissed & upset about this whole thing. I is very very very extremely sad!

2010-09-07T08:27:00.003+08:00

Ouh, hell! Why am I feeling this way? I just came back from jogging at ECP, went to jog alone at 530 in the morning. First time lei go alone early in the morning. HAHAHA! Had a good power 1 hour chat with Diy. While talking, something funny happened. I thought I heard a ghost making the "wooo" sounds! HAHAHAHA! When I turned around, it's actually the taichi aunties turning on the radio. HAHAHAHAHAHA! Even Diy was shocked. Funny moments early in the morning!

I haven't sleep since yesterday. Kinda stoning now!

2010-09-07T03:52:00.002+08:00

I know the whole story now. I understand the situation, my prediction was right then. Sigh. Nowadays people is soooo stupid, they don't even know how to appreciate with what they have. Seriously, I'm sad. I'm upset that... Nevermind.

I shall just keep it all to myself. Only Ida, Nasir & Allah knows how I feel right now. It's heart breaking :(

I just can't seem to avoid this feeling.

2010-09-06T04:45:00.003+08:00

Ouh well, it's already September. 3 more months to my birthday! It's like WOW! Time travel so fast! *blinkBlink* It's September. I'm not looking forward to my birthday, no special one to celebrate with but it's okay coz I still got my SPECIAL FRIENDS & FAMILY with me, being there for me, listening to me babbling almost anything! :)

This year, on my birthday, I want to be happy so negatives feelings please stay away! I don't need unnecessary "gifts" like you to be in my life. HAHAHA!

I'm listening to songs from "Liberty-X"! Ouh god! This group is soooooo long ago! HAHAHA! Remind me of those kentalan days, but their songs isn't bad at all, very catchy & poppy!! Seriously, it's highly recommended if you love those songs from Blue, Steps, Spice Girls. HAHAHAHA! Now I feel really old. Those groups were like.. I listen to them 11-13 years ago!!

Talking about old, I bummed into my ex-colleague at Sentosa Station. Funny thing was she work at RWS since January but I've never seen her. I was super shocked coz she's pregnant! Congrats to her! Now I feel like what the heck! Majority of my friends is all gettin married, married, married & pregnant but here I am, single, struggling & waiting for cupid to shoot an arrow. HAHAHA!! Okay, whatever. I'm still holding on my feelings for someone.

I can't wait for buka-ing soon! :)

2010-09-03T11:28:00.004+08:00

Had a good chat with Ida before hittin the sack in the wee hours! Seriously it was funny! Now we both are playing the Inspector game. HAHAHA!

Anyhow, he called me but I thought I was in dreamland so I take the phone then I text him if he did call me, then in the morning I checked again, yeah. He did, it was in my missed call. I'm too sleepy until ngigau. HAHAHAHA!

I'm in a confused mode right now. It's weird, it's well...misleading!

2010-09-02T13:57:00.002+08:00

Seriously it's getting even more complicated. It's driving me nuts!

Last night, we head to Teh Tarik again after work. We had great fun, laughing like crazy. Nasir disturbed me non-stop. So annoying lei. Hmm, I don't know if it's too obvious or what?!

I really don't know uh, like really ar. It's disturbin. I really hate this feeling! The twist & turns.

Anyway will be heading to Geylang, accompany him collect his Baju Kurung. Going there during fasting month is like WOW! It's totally is a WAR ZONE on fasting month. I think this year is like the most number of visits I had to Geylang! Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!! I'm not fond of Geylang, especially during festive season but somehow I did visit alot of times. HAHAHA!

Gotta go now. Will update again after the trip to Geylang!

2010-09-01T14:43:00.002+08:00

Today is the 1st of September. Wow! Time past fast, super duper fast!!!

Another 3 more months to my birthday, hehe! I'm not really looking forward to it, maybe I won't be celebrating it either.

So September wont be having any plans. Hmm, I think so.

October will be having closing ceremony of Hari Raya at Pasir Ris Chalet. Since my home will be closed, my mum decided to make a chalet & invite all my friends.

November will be going somewhere & celebrate.

December is my birthday.

Then it'll be Happy New Year!

The thought about New Year 2011 is like WTH!?! It's already 2011??!!

I'm still here struggling with my life, nevermind. Slowly, slowly. Take one step at a time.

Chill la ye, but I can't chill to much though. Time is running out & I'm not getting any younger!

My target is to study-study as much as possible & setup an online business. That's a one huge step. The next step is see how far my online business can go, then if time & wealth permits, I'm gonna take a one huge humongous step! hehehe.

Anyway, I'm happy. Awesomely happy coz for the past few days my phone was very quiet but today I got a huge surprise coz he text me. Erm, but I've no idea if he's back or what.

Today's plan is to sahur at Teh Tarik after work, as usual chit-chat & play some funny games then head home early in the morning. May be watching movie tomorrow with the usual close friends.

Okay, gotta go now! Wanna get ready for work :)

2010-09-01T03:18:00.002+08:00

Reached home at 230am, was freakingly tired! Did rover at Waterfront, luckily there wasn't any crowd today :) Talking about rover, it's a very big huge surprise that ever since I joined Sentosa, that was like 3 years ago, I never did rover until like now, when I joined back as a HRE. Some staffs did teased me, saying that,"Haz, very weird to see you do rover sia.." & some did laugh. Yeah, I know its weird coz last time I'm an IC but now, just a HRE. hehe! Doesn't really matter, as long I enjoy doing my job & at the end of the day, I get my salary. Need to settle my bloody bills, so stupid of me. Nevermind, one day you'll get what you truly deserve, I swear!

Right now, I'm like stoning. Sleepy but can't sleep. My body system seems to be upside down now. I've been losing my appetite, which is good. Can help me lose weight then. HAHAHA! I'm trying to slim down. Then can be like Angelina Jolie, fuhhhhh! Burnin hot! Chill uh, am not a lesbo. No offence. I know what's right & wrong. Heh! I just find her features fascinating, especially when she act in the movie, "Tomb Raider", "Wanted" & lots of other action flicks.

I'm missing my Kitty cat. Its been a very long time since I lost her. I really really miss her! Gosh... I wonder how you've been? I wonder if you're still alive? I wonder if you're safe? I wonder alot of things about you. Whatever it is, I really hope you'll remember me, the owner who'll always share my KFC chicken with you :) or who'll always play hide & seek with you. Run around the house, make you jump up & catch you. I know you really like that! Sigh.. but now there's no you :( I miss you alot!

2010-08-31T02:56:00.003+08:00

I don't know why all of the sudden the word "PRIORITY" popped in my mind!

Priority; something given special attention; highest or higher in importance, privilege.

It just reminds me of something; it's relationship. When it comes to a relationship, I tend to make my boyfriend, my priority in life. I don't know if it's good or bad for me to think that way but well, I do put my parents in the priority sides also. It's just that for me, spending time with my special one is really important unless if he's really busy with work. Understanding is also important in a relationship; compromise, respect...

Communication is important too, so let's say I'm busy, I'll make sure that I'll at least call & make some time for my special one, go out & spend time with each other, I don't mind travelling far, sacrificing my time & money just to spend time with him. I just don't want him to feel abandon, unloved coz I know how it feels like to be in that kind of position. I'll give him surprises to make him feel special. I believe if there's a special one in your life, you gotta make that someone feel special or else why would you label that someone special, right? HAHA! okay, that's kinda confusing. hehe! But too bad, my past just don't appreciate what I did. Shit is what I get, sigh.

Surprisingly 1 of my ex said that being with me isn't much of a hassle, I'm very easy to look after coz I know how to look after myself, I don't mix with the wrong ones, I don't club/drink/smoke, I don't throw my temper around & for that, it makes things easy for him, he feel secure & less worried. But to hell with that now! I don't need unappreciative individuals in my life.

I'm happy with what & who I am today coz the past just made me stronger & wiser. I've learnt to take things slow & easy. "Biar berangan, jangan mengharap."

Why am I rambling about special ones now? I don't know why, maybe. Just maybe.

2010-08-31T02:12:00.002+08:00

Time past really fast! Next week is Hari Raya! Seriously I look forward to bake Hari Raya goodies more than celebrate Hari Raya itself; plus decorating one space of the house. I pity my bro, ever since he moved to this tiny place with his ex-wife, the home is not properly decorated! It's always in a mess, that ex-wife of his is really freaking lazy! How I wished I have the power to turn back time & she wouldn't be with my bro! I really hate those "reps" to the core! They're the destroyer of life & peace. Okay, okay. Shall control my anger now.

I'm so excited to bake cookies!! Sis requested for 1 type of goodies. I'll be baking extra for Diyanah as well. Since she wanted the chocolate cup cookie, I told her to come over & help me. hehe! For the house decor, everything was chosen by me. Hehe!

Next week I shall start:

* painting 1 of the walls & paste it with the stickers,

* hang the curtains,

* search for pix to be printed out & framed,

* bake 3 types of Hari Raya Goodies,

So this year Raya will be fun & happy for everyone coz I planned the decor & bake the goodies!

I want everyone in my family to be happy celebrating, even though my bro's place is small & I'm not looking forward to celebrate. What I want is everyone in the family to be happy. Don't care about me though coz ever since grandma passed away, I'm totally off mood to celebrate. So I hope to do my part by helping out, that's to bake & decor.

Insya Allah, next year he'll get a new home :)

2010-08-28T12:59:00.005+08:00

I realized in FB, majority of people always rant about relationships & love.

Ouh, god.... Love, love, love.. Why do you exist? Your existence drives every human crazy!
Including me that is, I won't deny that somehow, somewhere at one point of time I'll fall in love again, even though I said that I don't want to fall again. Well it'd be a lie if I say I don't coz you can't stop or control your heart, the only thing that you can control is your mouth. It's up to you whether you want to tell that person about your true feelings. Majority is totally scared of rejection so mouth are shut & well that is what makes a hell lot of singles in this world!

Sometimes we fall for the wrong one but still we have to move on & learn on where did things go wrong. Sometimes it's entirely not your fault but the other party. Sometimes there's a third party. Sometimes, well sometimes.. There's hundreds of reasons on why break ups happen.
So whatever the reason is, move on & smile coz there's no point dwelling on something that isn't destined to be yours. So just keep a lookout, smile & make new friends. You'll never know you'll fall in love with someone much more better than your past!

2010-08-27T18:43:00.004+08:00

Another day goes by, will never know just wonder why.
You made me feel good, you made me smile.

I felt like something smacked me right on my face :(
Ouh hell, I totally hate the feeling that I have right now.

I feel like going somewhere & cry my heart out.

2010-08-27T04:24:00.003+08:00

Went to Geylang with my parents to break fast, didn't meet him coz he's gonna be late. It's okay, I understand coz it's very far, furthermore it's very late so some shops might already close by the time he reach Geylang.

Finally I went for a jog, after the Geylang trip :) The moon is really beautiful!

Well so I did say that I can't be bothered to celebrate raya but guess what, I'm excited to decorate the house! Like really freakin EXCITED!!! I've already chose the curtain & mum bought it! She don't want that colour but hell no, I still want that colour coz it gonna compliment my project! I told Sis to get white coloured dining table so it can match any colours easily :)

I need:
* 1 small can of paint.
* wall stickers.
Gonna get those stuffs tomorrow :)

Mum is getting a new oven for me!!!
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
I'm soooo happy la, weird I know. You all must be wondering of all things why OVEN sia that I'm dying to own...HAHAHAHAHA!!
So on the last fasting week, I'm gonna hit the kitchen & bake 3 types of kuih raya!
Not to forget decorate the house! :)

I'm an EXCITED FREAK!

2010-08-26T01:18:00.003+08:00

I feel like taking a stroll somewhere, the moon looks soooo beautiful tonight!

Well sucks, okay. Really sucks! :(
Stupid phone!

2010-08-24T03:54:00.003+08:00

"I usually work at Merlion, blahblahblah &....... Fort Canning." HAHAHAHAHA!! Ouh, god...Those were really funny!! I totally blurred out & can't stop laughing!

Well this few days was quite smooth, I don't know why it's like everything is back to normal life again, with friends, joke around, talk non-stop...I'm lovin it!

Hari raya is approaching but I'm so not looking forward to it.

2010-08-21T05:34:00.003+08:00

I kept thinking why is my life so f**ked up, it isnt fair at all. Now I totally changed, I can't be bothered anymore.
"What happened in the past is who I am today."

I'm excited for November & March!!!
Please come fast :)

2010-08-18T03:53:00.003+08:00

Working back at the Sentosa is really a great way for me not to think too much about it. Why oh why must it be this way? I helped others but shit is what I get. This is what happened when you're being to kind & people take advantage. What I wanna do now is concentrate on what I want in life.

2010-08-13T01:33:00.002+08:00

Sometimes people dont realise until its too late.

Sigh. Im really messed up right now. With the personal problems Im having plus the non-privacy place that Im living now, it just makes me in no mood to do the raya preparations. I cant be bothered, I really am. Love life sucks big time, he misunderstood me, assuming that my purpose of staying was for the sake of him paying my phone bill. Sigh. I rather pay on my own than him having thoughts like that! In the first place, if I never helped him. He wont get his work done. Some human just dont have the sense of gratitude, importance & urgency.

I wished I could get inside your brain & let you think!

2010-08-05T02:18:00.002+08:00

Finally I got the motivation to do stuffs. Thanks to the superiors & boss at Sentosa for accepting me back as HRE, I need cash to pay for my course.

Then I got other plans, since the previous was kinda backfired!
So first, settle my bills.
Second, pay for course & oven.
Third, save up for backpacking trip.

I'm soooooo excited about the trip that I'm motivated to work hard/smart for both trip & course. HAHAHA! Anyway I have to make sure that I'll clear my bills before October as I wanna get an oven. So since I got 3 accounts, OCBC Red will be for my daily spenditures. POSB Vintage will be for my studies & baking stuffs. OCBC Orange for my travelling trips!
Every pay cheque will be $150 for Vintage + $100 for Orange = $500/month.
Since studies is more important, I have to save more for it! I hope we'll move to the new home once I'm done with my studies so I can set up my "project".
Target, NEXT YEAR!! insya Allah :) Pray hard for me.

2010-07-31T01:01:00.003+08:00

I'm massively tired!!!
Been working for like how many days straight, I can't remember but I know its more than a week. Finally, slumber party time after work tomorrow...! & I'm off on Sunday, phewww!!!

2010-07-26T00:20:00.002+08:00

Sigh. Part time work sucks, everything sucks!
Hardly have any time for everything & everyone. Seriously pathetic!
Nevermind, another 32 working days to gooooooooooo!!!

2010-07-22T02:38:00.002+08:00

"If things don't go smoothly or something isn't to my liking or I'm just not satisfied with,

well be prepared for the worst that is to happen."

From the start, I've given you the warning that I'm never an easy person to be with. I even told you all the bad points about me, but still you want to know me more & get close to me. You didn't heed my advice. Now that things is becoming bad, you want me to sit down & think?
Let me ask you this, in the first place, who shall be blamed?

If I were to say everything, it won't be nice words but I'm keeping my cool now, hiding all my bad feelings aside as I want to prevent things from becoming worst.
If you think that I'm such a nuisance, by all means then. Seriously you said you'll always be there for me when I need you but hey!! Where is that promise??
I've set my ego aside & let you in, we promised each other that good or bad, we'll go through together, we'll help each other in time of needs but now it's all clear that it's all just talk.

I'm sorry if I'm such a letdown with my bad attitude. Don't say that I've never warned you coz I already did from the start.

2010-07-15T01:26:00.002+08:00

My legs & heels aching like MAD!! EXTREMELY PAINFUL!!
Never been like this before...What the hell la...
I've been very busy, won't be free until end of August.

After that, I'll be free! Woooohooooo!!
Gonna search for part time job again to pay for my course fees & my daily expenses.
I can't wait to get out of this mess, can't wait for end of August!!!!

2010-07-11T15:06:00.003+08:00

I'm so stressed up now, I don't know who to turn to anymore. Been thinking too much that it makes me sick each day. Fucked up mode. Shutting myself down.
It seems like no point being nice to someone & put others infront of me.
I've always been like that & I guess I'm really stupid coz being like that will just make people take advantage of me. Others won't make a great sacrifice for someone like I did.
I guess what he said is right, I'm too kind & I don't know how to say "No".
From now on, priority is me. No one else. I don't want to be a nice person anymore.

2010-07-07T17:54:00.006+08:00

Can I have any of this cats? Hehe..

3rd on the list is...

EGYPTIAN MAU

2nd is...

BENGAL

1st Priority is as always the...

SIAMESE

Im gonna name my future cat, MiuMiu!!!

2010-06-23T01:28:00.003+08:00

Caramel almond pretzel with Caramel dip (Auntie Anne's) + Milk = SUPERLICIOUS!

Talked alot with Diyanah just now, talked crap, talked about our life, talked about holiday, talked about our dreams, talk talk talk!!!
She's like my small sis already lor, even mum treat her like a daughter & ajak her go holiday. Gerek or what!? HAHAHA! Insya Allah, next year Jan or Feb :)

2010-06-22T01:41:00.004+08:00

Everyone has their own passion for something, for me, it's baking.
Don't laugh uh, honestly I'm really passionate about it as I know how to appreciate good food.
"Bebual macam paham!" HAHAHA!!

2010-06-21T21:05:00.002+08:00

I'm salivating....
Buffalo wings has been lingering in my mind for awhile now, plus Creamy Mushroom Soup & Caesar Salad.. Wooooots!!
Imagine the spiciness of the hot sauce, accompanied by the creamy soup & coldness/crunchiness of the salad!!! *drools* That'll be the greatest combination ever!!!

I've been playing Baking Life at FB since afternoon. OMGoooodnessssss!!
Like totally I have no life, my day sucks abit, okay, abit. Not much.

Anyways the Wanton Noodle at Bedok Teh Tarik is freakingly awesome & super spicyyyyy!
My lips felt PLUMP macam kena PUMP after eating it, for the price of $3.50,
I strongly recommend it :)

Erm, why am I rambling about FOOD?!

2010-06-20T17:46:00.003+08:00

Well well well...
So far jogging 3 times a week isn't a problem to me. The major problem is FOOD! As usual I will have 2 slices of multi grain bread with peanut butter for breakfast. Lunch will be clear soup with veggies & tofu. Dinner!! Dinner is a very big issue! I will either have yoghurt or bread, as I have gastric, it's very difficult for me to diet :(
I want to slim down badly lor, like my oldself again.
Seriously working at Sentosa made me gain weight! Stressssss je makan, stresssss je makan!

Okay, okay. I have to go now, wanna go fishing!

2010-06-19T19:13:00.002+08:00

This is my BIG dream,

not the biggest but GREATEST dream of all.

The atmosphere, teapot & all the props is very important

as it plays a big part in it.

Insya Allah, one day it will come true.

In 8 - 10 years time.

If I achieve it, what shall I name it then?

2010-06-12T16:52:00.003+08:00

Talking about stomach, is there any permanent cure for gastritis?
It's getting from bad to worst. My upper central abdomen, it's painful.
Freaking hate it! Too much acid in my stomach I think & it makes me get hungry easily.
I'm trying to lose weight uh. Haiya. Here I am, I can't escape from it.
Now I need to find something to eat, it's acting up again :(

2010-06-11T22:56:00.002+08:00

Jogging was fun with the cousins. The cold breeze, music, snapping pics. Then we had fruit yoghurt with cereal to fill our stomach. I hope it will last me til tomorrow morning. Heh! It's hard to go on a diet when I have gastric. Seriously uh, it won't go away permanently. Is there any cure for gastric? I doubt so.

Tomorrow I'm gonna have cereal with milk for breakfast or peanut butter bread.
Lunch, perhaps chicken sandwich or sauteed chicken with potatoes & mixed veggie.
Dinner, will be yoghurt or bread.

Sunday will be going for a jog again.

I really need to lose weight, I hate being fat!

2010-06-11T17:12:00.003+08:00

End of the month I have to do what I need to do. Once I got it, I have to hangout less often, concentrate on what I want & be financially stable! This is the last chance that I'm giving myself. I'm not really a discipline person & it's difficult. Sometimes I see myself a loser but then come to think of it, if I'm a loser, I won't be what I am today, I won't be able to earn above 1K with my education background whereas others who holds a certificate earn less than me. But that was then, now I need to do something more for myself & future.
I need to know where to start.
One step at a time.
- Part time job.
- Baking & Pastry Course.

I know it's not easy but Insya Allah, with the support of my loved ones, I know I can do it, I just need time & effort.

For now, I'm just taking a break, rest my body, ease my mind after what I've went through, those difficult times just made me stronger & wiser.

"Life is meaningless if you don't know how to live."

2010-06-09T19:26:00.002+08:00

There's some advantages & disadvantages of staying at both A & B. I'm always stuck in the middle, sick of it all. I let people use my things but wasn't well taken care off. Noise pollution everywhere. Buyers. Whatever I voice out will always go unheard so what's the point? I don't know, I shall just keep silence, concentrate on my future, force out a smile & lead my own life.

"Lead my own life, do my own things; that's what I do best."

The time of the month is coming, pardon me for my moodiness.

2010-06-07T13:11:00.003+08:00

I guess I'm being such a nuisance yesterday. Well, I just can't seem to trust someone fully. This has always been a problem to me & it takes time for me to trust someone as I will observe that someone for quite some time, talk to them & from there I will slowly build my trust. I'm a very careful person & I choose my friends. Quite a fussy person I must say, heh... What happened in the past is who I am today. It's not easy for me to recover at a short period of time.

2010-06-06T14:00:00.003+08:00

They looked happy :)
But then I just hope that their parents realized.

It's just so unfair for them.

Being neglected, not well taken care of.

It's school holidays, they should be spending more time with their parents.

Sigh.

At Bedok Jetty

Pictures brought to you by

Lomo.

2010-06-05T21:43:00.003+08:00

I've always felt something is missing. I'm never fond of accessories but what I want is just something unique & precious that I can wear until the end of time. I can't seem to find the right one, a necklace or a ring will be nice. Maybe one day I shall hunt for one :)

2010-06-05T21:21:00.001+08:00

I'm counting down the days :)

Online Movie Marathon!!!

2010-06-05T15:20:00.003+08:00

It's an online movie marathon day!!

I've watched..

Prince of Persia: Sands of Time.

[REC] 2.

Midnight Meat Train.

MMT is freakingly gruesome but awesome!!! Teeth & nails plucked out, eyeballs taken out, body butchered, tongue cut off! Twisted storyline though. In the end, the main character became the villain. TSK!

[REC] 2, freaked me out real good! HAHAHA!!! I really thought it was a zombie infested movie but actually it's not. It's demon infested, all the human in that building is being possessed. Scary though! But the best part, the demon did mouth to mouth, CPR thingy to the woman, it's very disgusting. It's like a long ugly sausage being transferred from the demon to the woman by mouth! Ending, the priest died. The woman was possessed & managed to get out of the building. Confirm there's gonna be [REC] 3!

Prince of Persia isn't that bad! But I wished there's more "rewind" scenes like those in the games, where he became all black & scary. Overall, it's a so-so movie.

Well I did managed to conquer my boredom by watching all this flicks today! Until then I'm gonna search for some other interesting stuffs :)

2010-06-04T19:41:00.003+08:00

It set me thinking on how things changed alot & I mean ALOT.. I miss my home at Bedok, my own room, my old cat Kitty, I miss the good times when we live at Bedok!! :( It's just infront of the stadium, near to all those famous eating spots. Sigh.
If we never rent out our home, I won't lost Kitty too! I can't bring Kitty along because of that bugger! I want to have another cat coz I'm lonely at home :(

Another sad thing is...
I won't be able to go Shatec coz the bank loan is a problem & as usual Mum is reluctant about it. It upsets me uh, it's like she wants an easy life but don't want to help me. FUCK IT! That's all I can say, I just don't know what the hell is wrong with everyone at home. Life is just so unfair, seriously. She would do anything, pay this & that for my bro or sis but when it comes to me, she'll give reasons. I always thought to myself, have I ever troubled her like what my bro & sis did?? Well the answer is a NO, I always work, always do & settle things on my own. Ever since I dropped out of school, I've never make things difficult for her. So for once, why can't she just help me? I'm sad, upset, disappointed, whatever...

From now on, I'll do my own things as usual. I got my back up plans.
By end of the month, I'll find a part time job & at the same time I'll search for baking & pastry classes, I'll learn anything & everything that I need to know. Once I'm ready, I'll do a trial for my creations. Don't worry, no one will get diarhoea. Heh.. If there's positive feedbacks, then I'll go on to the next step, that's to set up an online business & blahblahblah...
The target for the online business is early next year. Insya Allah.
I got my reasons why I wanted to do all this. I want to have a better future, not only for me but for my parents & loved one.

Comes to the next part...
Save money & settle down! The thought of marriage life is like WHOA!!
Seriously uh, I'm ready to settle down & I don't want to waste my precious time & life.
I just need someone who is serious about settling down, someone who loves me & accept me the way I am, who can convince me & make me feel secure in his care.

I've made a promise to myself that once I'm married, I will do what a wife need to do, the responsibilities as a wife & blahblahblah... I don't want them to lead a life like my aunt, bro & sis, not that I look down on them, I just don't want to lead a stressful life like them.
"Alin, bebual macam faham."
This are the few things that I've always keep in mind & will do once I'm married. hehe!
I'll make sure my husband won't starve, make breakfast for him before he goes to work, dinner will be waiting for him when he reaches home.
House will always be clean & tidy coz I hate those messy surroundings.
As for the kids, I want to watch them grow up under my care, I don't want to trouble others. Once a week, we'll spend time together with the kids, bring them to the interesting places. Birthdays will always be celebrated & remembered. I want the best for my kids & husband,
I'll take good care of my own family & that's a promise! :)

2010-06-02T03:02:00.002+08:00

I'll never learn a lesson when it comes to love. Being the stubborn person that I am, when it comes to this topic, I'll never heed advice from others as I follow my heart & believe in myself.
Well I bet some of you will probably think that I'm nuts, "follow my heart"?!
Aren't I suppose to use my brains instead?!
The problem is when you fall in love, you won't care what others say, you don't care if the person is good or bad, rich or poor, etc..
Honest answer, YES! I do use my brains!
I use it when it comes to the point when that particular person hurt me & from there I need to use my brains to make a decision but it all depends on the situation.

The reason why I'm rambling about all this is because.......Nevermind.
Sooner or later, you'll know.

I bet my mum feels like strangling me when I told her that I'm no longer with him.
It's not my fault that things weren't what it's supposed to be. I felt like she's pushing the blame on me about all the break ups that I had. How I wish she could just try to be in my shoe.
The empty promises, disrespect, being fooled around & cheated. It's not easy to gain trust in someone & to love again once you've been treated like shit! After all the sacrifices you did, you didn't get what you deserve is such a heartbreak & I'm getting sick of it.
Can I say that I'm upset? Honestly yeah, I'm upset coz sometimes I felt that she don't believe in me, she don't support what I want to do. Most of the time I've been doing things on my own.
I'm sorry that I say all this. I just want to let it all out, it's been bothering me.

2010-05-30T19:34:00.002+08:00

It saddens me that an innocent kitten was put to "sleep" because of a selfish human.
Try to put yourself in that situation, or perhaps a pregnant girl did an abortion because she wanted to cover her shame. Isn't that called selfish too??
Every living things in this world deserves a chance to live. It's so cruel & selfish thing to do.
For God's sake, it's just a kitten!! It doesn't harm anyone! I wished I could help the poor kitten, gave it a life it never had.

"I always dream that I'll get rich one day, just so I could help the strays. Build a shelter for the poor felines. Insya Allah, if I ever lead an easy life one day, I promise to help my feline friends."

To the poor kitten, who never had a chance to live.
May you rest in peace.

To the person who did the selfish act.
May Bastet haunt you & forever you will have bad luck.

2010-05-28T18:22:00.002+08:00

Its been a week since I've quit Sentosa. So now no more walkies, no more hold crowds! HEHE!!
Happy yoooooooooooo!! Will be hittin BATAM tomorrow!! FREAKING EXCITED!!! HAHAHAHA!!! Of all places....

2010-05-24T11:11:00.002+08:00

My last day at work was superb! Lots of surprises & got sabo-ed!
It was fun to work but the pressure was equally "great" too!
I learnt alot.
I appreciate what everyone has done for me on my last day of work,
it was really an awesome surprise, I never expect the cake & the gifts!
I'm sad to leave but I have to, I want to chase my dreams!
Lead a simple & good life, not only for me but for my parents too :)

2010-04-28T19:20:00.001+08:00

I'm waiting for my cousin to come, hittin the beach soon!
:)

2010-04-19T18:24:00.002+08:00

I've made up my mind. Just waiting for the right time.
With all the support from my buddies & family.
I'm sure I can do it. Like what I said,
I swear my life is gonna be better than "them".

2010-04-16T19:40:00.002+08:00

Fucking annoying!
I cant tolerate it anymore :(
When I thought everything is getting good & smooth..
Totally pissed off!!

2010-04-13T13:21:00.003+08:00

Make up your mind can?
After what I told you, after 2 freaking long messages...
What reply did I get? Just a smile? WTF!!
It's not even a smiling matter, it's fucking SERIOUS!!
You're driving me to my grave, SERIOUSLY!!!
:(:(:(

2010-04-08T11:50:00.002+08:00

I had great fun with great friends yesterday :)
We went to Fort Canning, National Museum, Slice, Jalan Kayu & Yishun Dam.
Reached home at 3am, heh...

Next trip, to Birdpark.
If cash doesn't permit us to Bali, USS & Costa Sands Chalet is the next priority :)

2010-04-01T20:51:00.002+08:00

Finally am done with the First Aid Course, now am a certified First Aider. heh...
So who needs a CPR? A bandage in the head? Hand?
Bandage like an egyptian mummies also can. HAHA!!
Three days past really fast.. We all had fun :)

Tomorrow am working HarbourFront IC!!
I shall declare WAR with the bhaiyas!!!

Saturday, gonna head to the National Museum, to see the Egyptian Mummies :)

If you want to be a ZOMBIE, easy...Find a dog with rabies, let it bite you, in 2 weeks time, you'll turn into a zombie. HAHAHAH!!! But then after that, you'll die in less than a week. WASTED!!
Actually you won't turn into a zombie la, but the way you react will be like one. heh....

2010-03-28T11:56:00.002+08:00

Dinner & Dance was indeed boring...
To top it all off with cancellation of the ice cream at Swensen's.
Plus yesterday's bad luck at work was really "superb" & today at home was really noisy,
& I really mean it. Seriously noisy!
Ouh, god... I need some peace of mind, dig up my grave & let me rest in peace please.
I need to sort some things out, my mind is gonna crash anytime soon.
REBEL!!!

2010-03-20T15:16:00.004+08:00

Okay, here we go again. The 2nd day of our Bali trip...Let the pictures do the talking! Oops!!

Pics are not in order. Sorry!!

This temple is at the beach, cool huh?
I can't remember what's the name of the temple, heh..

Nice?

Ida's new found hubby at the Strawberry Farm :)
At the Three Lakes.

Cool view!!

Another temple, which i can't remember the name.

Too many temples at Bali.

Ida with her pet, Iguana :)

Me & Keluang, thats what my mum said.

Its not a bat but a Keluang coz its big.

Bat is small. heh...
As you can see, we went crazy on top of the mountains.
Here we are again, cam whoring while waiting for the rain to stop.

This huge gigantic monster sure looked horrifying!

D-Munkeys!
This is my favourite photo!!

Looks like an album cover, haha!

We love Bali!

I shall continue again on my next free time,
as for now please enjoy browsing through the photos!
See you :)

2010-03-19T22:59:00.002+08:00

My patience is running thin...
I'm sooooooo fuckin upset!!
I'm falling, crashed to the ground.
I don't think I can get back up again :(

Still at Day 1...

2010-03-15T23:46:00.002+08:00

Pantai Kuta or Kuta Beach.
infront of a temple near the Kuta beach.

Ida's & Diy's new friend, the fisherman!

At the hotttttie Kuta Beach.

Surprisingly its only day 1 but we did alot of shopping!

Ida's twin who kena cursed to a stone.

After the shopping trip, off we went to ROCK the night,

at Hard Rock Cafe!!

US!

Me with Soda Pop!!

CHEERS!!!

Bali Trip Day 1

2010-03-15T23:08:00.008+08:00

Here comes the Bali trip post, its been two weeks.
& here I am missing Bali, haha! I want to migrate there, can?
Cheap cost of living, lots of entertainment, shopping!
Dream on Haz ~ heh...

Heres some pics :)
I've to upload the pics part by part, it's such an ass!
Well I was freaking excited about the trip, we went on the 27th Feb, flight at 10am.
Supposed to meet up at 8am but...
Being the soooo excited & happy person that I am, Dear actually fetched me at around 6.45am.
We were very early & extra punctual coz we reached the airport at 7.15am.
So while waiting for the rest, I settled all my bills before leaving the country. heh...
Senang hati ckit, can travel with ease :)

Here's us:

Diy, Me, Ad, Fizzah & Ida.

Thanks to Dear & Fizzah for sending us off at the airport :)

cloudy skies.

I think Diy is sleeping when Ida snapped this pic, haha!

Tune Hotel.

Finally after a 2.5 hours flight, we reach BALI!!! COOLLLLLL!! But came the uncool part where there's this driver who approached us like a STALKER!! Followed us everywhere & telling us to board his vehicle.. Mangkok! Tak faham bahase... But end up, we took the cab from the airport to the hotel, that's Tune Hotel. I'd give 3/5 * stars for the cleanliness but then small "you-can't-run-anywhere" rooms. hahaha!

2010-03-13T14:29:00.002+08:00

Seriously I don't know whats in my mind right now.
It's totally unfair. I'm going somewhere for awhile.
I'll be back.

2010-03-12T00:21:00.001+08:00

I wonder about alot of things.
I wonder if I ever crossed your mind, to me it happens all the time.
I feel like someone kena abandon. HAHAHA!!

I miss you...

2010-03-06T03:29:00.002+08:00

Again.... I'm speechless & disappointed!

Anyway I just got back from Bali, next stop Bangkok & Langkawi.
I will upload some pix soon as I'm not in the mood now.

Okay, off to godeh2 my iPhone then head to bed.

Morning all!!!
Damnit!

2010-02-25T22:15:00.002+08:00

Meeting the Sentosa staffs tomorrow, then next day I'm flying off!!
Freaking can't wait!!!

I hate to say this but...

Listening to Liz Phair bring back memories of my rockin good times!
Songs like "Why Can't I?", "Extraordinary", "Rock Me", "My Favorite Underwear", "Fuck & Run", "HWC"..etc.. Lyrics to the songs are just soooooo awesome & some funny, especially "My Favorite Underwear" & "HWC"..

Another thing, I can't stop watching the documentary about Bermuda Triangle!
It's just sooooooo weird & full of mysteries. They already found the Flight 19 which was lost freakin years ago!! WOW!!! So what lies in the Bermuda Triangle? Aliens? Jins? Black Hole? A monster? I'm dying to know lor... Can I go there & disappear? *POOFFFFF**

Goodnight!
I miss you...

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart."

2010-02-21T17:50:00.002+08:00

Its only 5.50pm but it the surroundings looked like its 7-ish.
Okay, anyway I'm bored! Sad sia! Off today but got nothing to do...Earlier on I watched a Korean & Japan movie. Kinda okay, not bad. Hmm...Well I feel like whipping out something, make epok-epok but not enough ingredients. Or make jempot-jempot but then the kitchen is booked, my dad busy bathing the birds. I missed those days. Seriously, I'm sad :( :( :(

Okay, off to jog now!!! BYE!!

"Truly loving another means letting go of all expectations. It means full acceptance, even celebration of another's personhood."

2010-02-19T00:31:00.002+08:00

Off day was indeed super boring today :( Serious shit!

I watched BBC Documentary for nearly 4 hours, which was interesting coz its about India, Mexico & JAPAN!!! I'm dying to go Japan, Egypt, Cambodia, Borobudur & Greece!!! Those countries that are rich with HISTORIES & very ANCIENT!!!! Take photos of their ancient monument, beautiful sceneries etc.....Ouh, I'm also interested about Bermuda Triangle, I wanna go there but I don't want to get lost, can?

Okay, enough of this. So again I jogged for an hour, took a shower, then ate Alpen bar while watching 3 episodes of anime. While watching, Mum kacau daun lor, she told me to follow her to the supermarket!! Being a nice daughter, I follow la. hehe. Then at the same time I bought what I want. Soooooo tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!! ARGH!!! Gotta go!!! My Bro so kepoh, wanna use my lappy!! Gotta go now!! Before that I wanna download a song!!!

Listening to Class 95 at night makes me missed you more!!! Argh!!! :(
Ouh, again............I MISS MR RANDOMATICUNOS!! :( :( :( :(

"Appreciate what you have before time forces you to appreciate what you had"

2010-02-18T18:58:00.002+08:00

War is not over yet,

not until the 21st.

Or worst with the RWS Casino opened,

alot of people especially those uncles & aunties,

keep coming in & kept on asking the same question like....

Qns: Where is the casino ar???

Qns: How to go to casino ar???

OMG!!!

I really can't tolerate it anymore,

freaking irritating!

I felt like taking those money chips & throw it at their faces.

My body is sooooo exhausted!!

Not only that but my mouth/lips too is tired of smiling & answering the same questions.

Surprisingly some guest do know how we staffs felt,

to those guests who understand us,

thanks alot!!

1 more week & I'm flyingggggggggggggggggggggg!!!

2010-02-13T02:29:00.002+08:00

Yet another disappointing weekend.

In life, I learn not to hope,

hope for something in return,

Coz if you do & when the things you hope for is just a hopeless dream,

then you'll get upset, really really upset.

I'm used to it though.

The feeling of disappointment is like a "close friend" to me.

So yeah, luckily I didn't hope for it or else I'll be sooooo freaking upset,

I bet no one can actually makes me feel better.

Now I'm in a totally no mood,

another disappointing moodless weekend for me.

Argh!!!!!

Dengar lagu John Mayer pun cantik!!

2010-02-11T23:47:00.001+08:00

The war is coming.

I'm in no mood.

I feel like making myself disappear!

*POOF*

2010-02-08T00:40:00.003+08:00

As I'm typing this post, I'm actually listening to the song you're listening right now.

heh...

Nice song isn't it?

I freaking love John Mayer!!!! & his music of course, freaking pure genius!!!

A question, Can we live our life without worries?

Sometimes I wish that I can just shrink & disappear!!

POOF!!!!

Too much things on my mind, I can't wait for CNY War to end.

Badly need a break.

2010-02-08T00:36:00.002+08:00

Came without a warning.

Now I'm left speechless.

2010-02-07T03:06:00.002+08:00

CNY is coming!!!

PREPARE FOR WAR!!!!!

Like seriously,

this is the time for you to actually vent your anger on them.

*evil smile*

Nowadays I'm feeling kinda cranky,

I'm in a totally off mood,

I talk rot to everyone so as to prevent myself from frowning.

Who would take a 2 hours bus ride home,

when there's actually a 30 mins train ride??

Me of course!!

I prefer taking the bus home than the train,

can go sight seeing,

watch the vehicles & people passing by.

Just to release stress,

plus don't forget a nice Pure Choc drink from Coffee Bean.

Thats what I did the other day,

I was totally stressed out about everything,

until now I'm still am.

2010-02-03T20:00:00.002+08:00

This morning while I'm dressing up for work,

was listening to Class 95 as usual,

then this song strikes me!!!

LOL!

All of the sudden, I feel sooooo good,

as in all my negatives feeling is gone.

Heres the link to the song:

http://www.4shared.com/file/47537049/871d1c7b/Mr_Big_Eric_Martin_-_I_Love_Th.html

Yesterday was a parent's day out I think.

I had dinner with parents at Mad Jack Cafe @ Jln Kayu.

Then head home via LRT @ Thanggam,

my mum was super scared la!

& jakun also coz she never taken the LRT at that platform before,

so apa lagi!!!

I dragged her!!

HAHAHAHA!!

Well we talked about home & stuffs,

I'm stressed lor :(

My mum very clever,

she still wanna lepak so she told my dad to go up first,

while she & I slack at the void deck.

As usual la, she blab about this & that.

& I go "ouh, ok...Mcm2 ar, tk betol.."

I don't comment much lor..

Never did I expect that she asked hows me & him.

My answer was simple, still new so everything is okay..

But isn't that true?

Well I hope its going good, not only for now but forever..

OMG!!

Sounds soooo not Haz :P

I love you, Mr Randomaticunos :)

2010-02-03T19:18:00.002+08:00

Another 23 more days to go....

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

I can't wait to step my foot on Bali!!

I wanna shop til I drop!!

Go for a spa session!!

Go sight seeing!!

Take pix!!

2010-01-25T18:26:00.002+08:00

Its been awhile since I last update,

kinda lazy & busy, no time to turn on my lappy.

So today I have quite a little time to actually turned it on.

Well updates updates!!

So far everything is good, we already booked the flight to Bali :)

End of Feb that is, we're going to flyyyyyyyyyyy!!!

I've already bought my own Animal luggage, a new set of clothes!!

I'm freaking excited!!!!

Alhamdullilah, my life is better now,

with family, Dear & true friends by my side :D

I love them to bits & pieces!!

2010-01-16T14:57:00.000+08:00

Negatives, please go away!!

SHOOOOO!!!

2010-01-12T12:24:00.003+08:00

Now everyone knows about it.

Hot juicy news spread like FIRE!!!

February is coming!!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

I can't wait for 27th Feb,

going off to Bali!!!

2010-01-10T01:16:00.002+08:00

Yippeeeee!!

Met up with Love after work,

went to have dinner at Holland V. then slacked at Coffee Bean.

He sent me home then intend to slack again but end up we saw a stray cat,

since we both love cats so he bought cat food to give the cat.

Aren't we nice, kind & thoughtful?

HAHAHA!!

Now......

the thought about him gave me butterflies in my stomach!

2010-01-07T02:16:00.004+08:00

I'm missing & loving him more each day.
A feeling I can't seem to explain.
Ouh, god! Now I sound sooooo cheesy!
Whats up with me?!
HAHAHA!!
Haz, better stop it!
Its been awhile since i last update,
been so busy lor, busy with my L-O-V-E!
HAHAHAHA!!
busy with my jogging session.
Busy! Busy! Busy!
Trying damn hard to lose weight.
Like what i already promised!
Things will change after my Bali trip!
*Jeng! Jeng! Jeng!*
So just wait after early March!

2009-12-31T22:48:00.004+08:00

Lalala.......

I'm in love........

I guess fate really want us to meet again.

2009-12-28T02:22:00.001+08:00

I'm happy, confused, stunned at the same time.

Thats all i gotta say.

2009-12-16T02:09:00.002+08:00

TOA was indeed fun today!

It stands for Tour Of Attractions.

It was a last minute thingy actually,

i was supposed to do Imbiah Lookout IC1,

but end up doing TOA with Affandi!

Sooooo fun!!

Each of us brought 12 staffs around the attractions.

Well i think im not doing a good job :(

because its my first time doing TOA & last minute thing.

If i was informed beforehand, i would have listed out the important facts about each attractions.

Anyway, i did had a great time at work today!

Even though its shitty at the end coz of the St John's Booking.

Argh!!

Can someone please demolish that camps & bungalows at St John's??

HAHAHA!!

2009-12-13T15:41:00.003+08:00

Last night, was seriously a fun night.

Work was really crazy!!

With the Zouk Out event, so I was kinda excited about it!

This year was my first time doing last shift on the Zouk Out night.

It was seriously insane!

You all surely know how drunkards act right??

I was IC4 at Imbiah Station so it wont be that busy like Sentosa, Beach or Seah Im.

Like seriously, after 8pm alot of those party people keep on coming in,

majority is MAT/MINAH REP!!

Me & the staffs was like WTH!!!

Eeeewwww...

then before the train even arrives,

we can already smell the beer!!!

Then when the train arrives, the door are open,

all of us were like staring blankly at the drunkards!!

HAHAHA!!

With their red faces, ouh god!!

They looked like lobsters!!!

It was funny also seeing how they behave.

Then there's this topless bus & some of the passengers actually sat on top of this shelter!!

Its freaking scary!

Imagine the bus emergency brake then all the passengers sittin on top flung out of the bus!!

Wooooooooooooooooooo!!

Serves them right, who ask them to sit on top right?

Then we all left vivo at around 2am.

Sooooooo we went to party at Teh Tarik Jurong, hahaha!!

Me, Ida, Huda, Salina.

We met Hakim, Nasir & Rezal over there.

Since Ida is going to Perth for a month, we spend some time with her lor.

We gossiped, laughed like hell then told ghost stories.

It was indeed awesome after soooooo long!

Then Huda & me took the first bus home, reached home at around 8am.

Slept flat on the bed until 2pm, rushed to the airport at 4pm to send Ida off.

Spent some time with Diyanah, told crap stories, went to Compass point then at around 9plus,

met my mom & bro, off we went to NTUC at Buangkok!!

Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!

Sooooooooo tiring lei...Like seriously!!!!

I need a good rest, gotta wait for Wednesday.

2009-12-10T18:17:00.002+08:00

Today on off again!

Ouh, god.

Looks like im forever on off this week.

HAHA!!

Tomorrow & Sat working.

Sunday off again,

gonna send Ida off at the airport with Diy.

Then we gonna eat Popeyes & slack around as usual.

Leading a happy life?

Erm, not really.

I sensed that something is missing.

Okay, forget about the missing thing.

Now what I wanna do is....

*order the stuff*

*pay my bills*

*go shopping*

*get the DSLR*

*workout like mad, seriously mad!*

I want to leave all the past behind,

kick the new year with a good happy start!!

Yesterday, Diy & Marinah,

they gave me the Bvlgari Omnia perfume that i loooove!!

Thanks ladies!

Well seriously,

i felt that my 23rd birthday celebration is

freaking AWESOME!!!

Wooooohoooooooooo!!

After what happened,

the shitty relationship thingy,

i can still remember that i got good stuffs in return.

On that day I broke up,

was the day I received the good news!!

Ever since then,

Good things just wont stop pouring in my life.

I guess all that shit happened for a reason.

Im glad.

Its feels too good without you!!

I deserve someone better.

Now that i came to know about the real story,

what goes around comes around.

2009-12-09T01:23:00.002+08:00

We went to 313 somerset,

just to buy that Uniqlo sweater.

HAHA!!

Then we went to Orchard Central,

the Roof Top Garden is cool!

Nice breath taking view :)

But before that roof top,

I got a surprised from the both of them!

The Double I!!

Seriously am sooo surprised & paiseh lor.

hahhaha!!

Thanks to them,

Ida & Iqmal!!

This 23rd Birthday is an unforgettable one!!

Really, tak bedek!

hahaha!

I celebrated two times!!

hehe.

Happy 23rd Birthday to me!

Wish me all the best in the future,

no more bankruptcy, no more heartbreaks,

no more sadness, no more negativeness.

iwish, iwish, iwish!!!

please please please,

grant my wish!

2009-12-08T13:49:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
to
ME!!

Thanks to everyone who made it happen!!
Hearts you all :)
Thanks to everyone again for the birthday wishes :)
BBQ was indeed fun!

2009-12-05T03:52:00.002+08:00

I just don't get it.

Why must some people be sooooo "shiok sendiri"??

Tak faham langsung orang macam gini.

Eye candy here & there, then what?!

Once you get hold of the eye candy,

when that particular person is being nice to you,

you'll get the wrong perception & that the eye candy has feelings for you?!

Ouh, god!

Come on la.

Doesnt mean people "like" you when they're nice to you!!

Ishk, soooo bloody stupid!

People with this kind of mindset should get raped sia.

Like seriously!

They make themselves look like somekind of a despo.

TskTskTsk!

mampos!

I just don't know whats happening to these people nowadays.

2009-12-04T00:02:00.002+08:00

Finally i got time to update my blog.

Sooo tired, exhausted & whatever..

Seriously, im in freakin nooo mood!!

Got migraine countless times in a week,

My throat is giving me probs again!

Ouh, freak....

I think i cant drink cold soft drinks :(

Shall update again on Monday,

Ouh, by the way Tuesday 8th Dec is my birthday.

HAHA!!

Prezzies for me please :D

2009-11-27T13:56:00.002+08:00

Its Hari Raya Haji today.

My off day & I'm tired, feeling sick.

Been having migraine for the past two days,

omg. nevermind.

I just cant wait for the event next week!!

WoooooHoooooooo!!

Anyway, Louis & i had a cake tasting evening yesterday.

We tried the Butterscotch Pecan & Choc Mud Cake from Secret Recipe.

Well i prefer the Butterscotch but no,

am not gonna get that for my birthday.

its tooooo sweet!

Choc Mud Cake is definitely a big NO!!

sungguh tak sedap!

HAHAHAHA!!

Ouh,

I LOVE Choc Paradise from....

damn, i forgot the cafe's name.

HAHAHA!!